Letter

Dear Chelsea,

It's been a while. You seem happier, confident, and loving life. Good for you. I bet days like today make it hard. When you don't feel the best and the reminder that PCOS is still in your life even though you have come so far the past few months...is that way your eating was horrible? Even after a friend warned you and you put in an effort? It's time you realize that just because the way you feel changes within a couple of months and you feel like a new person, your body is changing at it's own pace. From a friend's point of view your body is changing, but what's going on inside of you is a different story. Your PCOS symptoms may never go away. Your skin is getting worse by the day, no matter how many times you exfoliate, wash, or do homemade masks. This happens. It has to be tough to feel great but have your confidence shaken yet again because your face is breaking out so bad.  This too shall pass.

You have so many people telling you that you inspire them and that you're doing fantastic. Accept that. Accept that you have something to offer to others. You aren't just a human taking up space. You're on Earth to walk a path, inspire others, and learn from everyone around you. You can start a chain reaction. The best part is that the chain reaction is positive and leads to great outcomes. Be that person, Chelsea. You have that in you to start positive chain reactions. Be what you needed years ago. 

I know you're scared of failing. Everyone is. You haven't failed yet, so keep going. And if you failed it's because you stopped. Don't stop. "Friends" have shown their true colors and it's up to you to accept their choices and continue to forgive & simply focus on you. Don't feel bad. You are still giving so much to everyone in your life. And at the end of the day, you are still focusing on you. If someone can't accept that and support that, that isn't your fault. So many people can get turned off by someone else's success, but we all have to learn to let others shine. How else do we learn from one another?

Don't ever give up. I'm so proud of you. You have done all of this. You have prepped every meal, you have done every workout, and you are making the choice every day to make a positive life for your future. 

XOXO.

Fighting a Funk.

Yesterday was a good day. I spent the morning and afternoon relaxing and of course cleaning house. For breakfast I made some scrambled eggs with venixon and diced tomatoes with fruit on the side. :) 

 

 

Yesterday's workout was awesome. Laura, her neighbor, and I went on a hour hike. We hadn't hiked that mountain in a couple of weeks I think so it definately was a good burn. I like how we didn't take but maybe 2 breaks the whole time. :) It was nice knowing that I could go up further and further without stopping. 6 weeks ago I had such a hard time hiking that mountain. After our hour hike we hung out for about 20 minutes until we decided to either do a circuit or some Zumba Dancing!!! :) In October/December when I was at my heaviest I did zumba as a warm up before my Jilian Michaels and let me tell ya...it was horrible!

 

Don't get me wrong, even now doing Zumba or Turbo Jam is tough because I feel so akward. I feel that my legs and arms are strong but my mid section is still not where I want it to be so I just have to push that insecurity out of my head and give it my all so that I get the most out of my workouts.

 

Here is the first one we did. I can't find the other three so tonight when I'm at Laura's I'll see what we did on her YouTube channel and post them! 

 

After the workout!!!

 

 

 

 

This weekend I've had a lot of people reach out and tell me that they love reading my blog. It surprised me becasue they were people I didn't know would ever find my rambling interesting, but I do want to say thank you.

 

My Instagram, blog, and Facebook page keeps me accountable and I wouldn't have been able to stay motivated some days without knowing that people want to hear about what I did for my workout or what recipe I tried. So thank you!!!!

 

On another note: I'm almost to my -20 lbs goal and then I plan on losing another 30 for a total of 50lbs. :) I obviously need and will lose more than 50, but when I hit my 50 mark I am going to give myself a makeover! :) My Aunt Sue and I have been talking about attending a spa once we both lose another 30 lbs. She has been doing fantastic on her journey and I can't wait until the weekend where we go to a spa and simply relax in all of our hard work.

 

I've definately been in a funk lately, not sure what it's about. I'm guessing some of the depression I fight without medication is creeping up on me or the simple fact that I miss my family and Keller. Who knows? Either way, I'm making a promise to myself right now that this week I will eat COMPLETELY clean, workout 6 days a week, & change my mind set with every new day. I've come too far to let fear, a funk, or myself stand in the way.

 

 

 

I'll try to post tonight after our workout. :) I also plan to start posting new recipes I try. I think this week I will try a Vegan Chocolate Mouse I found online. It includes DATES.....yuck!!!!! lol I know my sister, Julie would love it, so we shall see!

 

Thank you again everyone.