Count Your Blessings...Every. Single. Day

Today, I woke up BEFORE my alarm went off. Weird, I know! Haha. 

I want to start off by saying THANK YOU for such positive and unbelievable feedback and reresponse to last night's posting about my PCOS. I had a lot of people on Instagram find my blog and reply in such a loving and supportive way! I even had a couple women find that my symptoms are similar to their own, which made them want to go see the doctor. It's all about knowledge and prevention ladies!

 

I had a banana, strawberry, organic fat free milk with metabolic drive protein powder for breakfast! Hating breakfast, I've found a protein shake goes and stays down easier!

For lunch I had a chicken burger with lettuce and tomato on top with a salad. 

 

Now, lets talk about my FAVORITE part of the day! Last week my Nana had a check up (a year after her colon surgery for her cancer) and the results came back today after they removed two polyps last week. CANCER FREE!!!!!! She doesn't have to go to get a colonoscopy for another 3 years! God is Great! ALL THE TIME! 

I spent a good 15 minutes crying to the Creator in thanks and absolute happiness. My nana is my life, next to my mom and I'm so happy that her fight and determination shows that she can overcome ANYTHING!  

Need a laugh? Here you go! 

 

 

Laura, Jason, and I did two seperate circuits :) 

 Laura posts daily workout challenges on her facebook page "Lets Lose It Together". Check it out & ask to join! She has a great outline for meals and nutritional guides for a low carb, high protein diet! :) She also has "healthified" recipes!

I wasn't wanting to workout AT ALL, which I knew meant I had to no matter what. This whole week has been difficult for me. I know it's my 6 weeks and that I might be running on empty or might be getting restless, but every single day I keep telling myself to keep pushing. I'm not sure how I feel about weigh in day. I know I've been working out and eating well (maybe not as often and as on time as usual and I've had a little more sodium than usual) but I know I'm giving it my best in my current "funk".

So, the next couple of days I really need to push myself to the point where I just feel PROUD of a non scale accomplishment. I think a trip home will help too, I know I'm missing my family A LOT! It's been almost 6 months since I've been home. 

I plan on making a daily workout plan before I go home so I can go to the community center and workout during my vacation home. I need to show myself that I can go on "vacation" and still eat clean and workout. If I can do that next week, I don't care what the scale will say the following Saturday! 

Check out what I had for dinner! A deer roast that cooked in the crock pot ALL DAY LONG! It was delicious. One of the best meals I've had in a long time! 

   
So, I still have to make my lunch for tomorrow, I'm thinking tilapia with a salad and fresh veggies. 

I'm getting pretty tired already and it's only 10, so I'm off to make a quick lunch and then head to bed. I hope everyone has a great night and day tomorrow! :) 

"L"ove Yourself!

Today, cookies and other sweets didn't win. Clean eating won! :) Stuck to the snacks and food I brought to work and drank LOTS of water! :) YAY. 

Today, Laura and I started our workout at the bottom of the "L" in Missoula and we hiked to the "L" then wrapped around the mountain and went down The Hidden Trail and ended up at my house! We believe it right around 4.3 miles or so. LOTS OF CARDIO! :) Hiking has become my get away :) 

Here are so fun pictures. I'm keeping it pretty short today because I'm exhausted and am falling asleep typing!  Excuse my crazy facial expressions...

The Numbers....April 20, 2013

I'm practically having anxiety as I type right now. I'm a very quiet person when it comes to my weight, and for so long I've been embarrassed to even "hint" at what I could weigh. I know that if I want to be held accountable and reminded of my weekly progress and even inspired to work harder, putting these numbers up every week is what I need to do. 

I told myself that if people following my blog are taking the time to read everything, I better put it ALL out there. 
 

I weighed in on April 6, with an empty bladder, so every Saturday that's when I weigh in.

I was just keeping track of the numbers on my "notes" on my phone. The following week, I weighed in again and the number was going down a bit! :) 

Here is this morning's number....from the scale itself. 

I hope you can see the numbers...it says 233.8. Next week I'll take a better pic of the scale. 

 

 

 

I see these numbers and I'm so ashamed, ashamed that I let my weight get this bad...I know at one point I just decided to ignore it. I chose to blame it on my PCOS. I know getting PCOS was a large part in the weight gain, but I shouldn't have allowed the illness to take over. I should have tried harder to prevent the weight from adding on. 

But, instead of beating myself up, I'm going to continue to work as hard as ever and make those numbers keep going down each week. I'm glad I decided to do this at 21, instead of 40 or 50. 

Thank you all who have encouraged, supported, and wrote amazing messages on here and on Facebook through this very vulnerable time. I appreciate you all! :)  

Progress

Right: Two weeks ago. Left: Today.

I've been struggling with putting up "progress" pictures. I know that they inspire people, my friend's pictures have inpsired me. However, I'm not sure if it has to do with my small town bringing up, my complete embarrassment, or just my shyness, but I find it hard...

 

But because I've promised myself to experience every struggle, joy, and accomplishment throughout this process, I will post progress pictures.

 

Today's picture is of my face. I looked back on my Instagram and tried to find one as close to the one I took today from over a week ago. I can see a difference now that they are put next to eachother.

 

All week I've had people comment on my face and how it's thinning out, and of course I can't see it. You would think after looking at something so much you would notice small differences.

 

Anyway, tonight I plan on putting some pics up of me in shorts and a white sheer tank top. You'll get to see how big I was, without me feeling like I'm "naked". Then, once I reach my -15 lbs goal (6 lbs away!!) I will do pictures in shorts and sports bra.

I've realized that seeing those pics I'll be motivated...just like the picture above motivates me.

 

I also weigh in once a week, on a Saturday. I think finding out those numbers on a weekend keeps me motivated and accountable to continue good eating and exercise even on the weekends. (My past attempts would be rouined during the weekends..)

 

So every Saturday, I will post a picture of what the scale says.

I have been keeping track of the numbers on my phone, so this Saturday I will post the picture of my "notes" on my Iphone that has all the numbers documented. Then from now on, you will see what the scale says. :)

 

I'm being as vulnerable as I can throughout this process. That's going to be a huge obstacle I think.